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borderline personality and mania
« on: April 05, 2013, 05:47:11 PM »
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i am just wondering if anyone who has BPD also goes through "phases" (for the want of a better word) of mania  ??????!?

really hyper moods cant stop moving and having to busy  :1033:

sometime for days at a time  :shoc:

its similar to bi polar mania only not as chaotic :1033: and i do sleep sometimes at night  ::-\:  :peepwall:

i know manias are possible with BPD

i am just wondering if other have them to :icon_question:
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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #1 on: April 05, 2013, 11:12:53 PM »
Sometimes if I dont sleep I get quite high and ranty and do things I wouldn't usually like hugging random people (I dont generally do physical contact) and buy stuff thats green and randomly decide things like "I NEED to paint my flat" at 3/4am. I also get a little bit more risky because "everything is pointing to the fact that I should" do dumb things. I tend to get quite fixated on doing one thing that I shouldn't.

My family often refer to it as 'being tigger' because I quite literally bounce off the walls also I get an odd urge to bite things and climb things. Its hard to work out if its due to lack of sleep or if lack of sleep is a result.

I dont really know what to call that. I dont get the whole grandiose thing. It usually lasts a few days maybe a week and a half...im sure that mania is supposed to last longer than that. Also I wouldn't say I feel 'happy' often I just feel invincible and like I can do anything at all. Similar to being on speed

Not sure if that helps
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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #2 on: April 05, 2013, 11:27:46 PM »
that does actually

tbh the sounds just like me

if i did know otherwise i would say i wrote that post

thank you Lorien

if (which i wont) i read your post to my hubby

i am certain i he would say its me

mania's dont have to last a set amount of time

it variable, the time scales are guild lines

and it also depends on the type of illness

i have literally painted the house in the middle of the night

i have moved the funiture around by night

and got up after going to sleep a wondered

what has happened to me

i have gone on cleaning missions in the middle of the night

shopping missions you name it

i'll go and wake my hubby up

in fits of giggles wanting to play,

have tickle fights, play monopoly, go for a run, there the main ones

i cant remember everything i do

i just get told the following day

days are becoming just as hard

have the same energy hyper busts

around trying to live a "normal" day to day life

thank you Lorien

its good to know i am not alone

huge hugs
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those who do want to know,
  want to know so they can use it against me
hurt, pain, anger, destruction, death and hatred, the story of my life
all i hope for is some one i can love trust and believe loves and cares for me and wants whats best for me

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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #3 on: April 05, 2013, 11:40:31 PM »
No worries. I remember a few times waking up my now ex at 3am by diving on her then jumping on the bed because it was time to play. She was good with word association...other times she just told me to f**k off. (don't blame her at that kind of time)

Often if I can sleep properly it curbs it. The psych has given me a few days worth of zopiclone before and it does seem to make me less fixed on dumb stuff, not sure why but im not going to question why when it helps.

Maybe something to try?
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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #4 on: April 06, 2013, 02:34:48 PM »
i wish my hubby was good at word association

i am and have great fun whinding him up when he says something and spinning him

that could be a fun thing to do at three am

i find the more stress i am under

the worse it can be

if i let the stress get me to much

at the moment it doesnt seem to bad

since the trials with my diet

that i am now sticking to as it makes my life

and those round me alot better and more bareable

they seem to have got the mental illness kind of undercontrol

the night manias seem to have disappeared

whether that stays the same over the next few weeks

where the stress is really going to on up

i am not so sure

i just need work out the obsessions by day

that send me on turbo drive
no one wants to know
no one cares
those who do want to know,
  want to know so they can use it against me
hurt, pain, anger, destruction, death and hatred, the story of my life
all i hope for is some one i can love trust and believe loves and cares for me and wants whats best for me

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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #5 on: April 06, 2013, 07:57:05 PM »
Have you described the manic episodes to your team? I ask because it is possible to have both bpd and bipolar.
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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #6 on: April 06, 2013, 09:42:27 PM »
i dont have a MH team

going to pm you
no one wants to know
no one cares
those who do want to know,
  want to know so they can use it against me
hurt, pain, anger, destruction, death and hatred, the story of my life
all i hope for is some one i can love trust and believe loves and cares for me and wants whats best for me

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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #7 on: April 14, 2013, 03:35:50 AM »
Hey hun

Just wanted to say i'm the same.

I get periods of time when i'm overly energetic, i have big grand ideas about what i'm going to do, and start making plans and getting excited. I start huge projects in the middle of the night, i've also re arranged all the furniture and pulled up the carpet off from the living room floor :-/  I somtimes go out for middle of the night jogs or walks because i feel so wired. I can also get childike and very hyper, over the top sillyness and this soon turns into frustration and aggression with those around me.  I also have a tendancy to overdo the drugs and alcohol at these times.
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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #8 on: April 14, 2013, 02:51:29 PM »
huge hugs

thank you

its so good to know i am not alone
no one wants to know
no one cares
those who do want to know,
  want to know so they can use it against me
hurt, pain, anger, destruction, death and hatred, the story of my life
all i hope for is some one i can love trust and believe loves and cares for me and wants whats best for me

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Re: borderline personality and mania
« Reply #9 on: April 14, 2013, 04:26:33 PM »
I get some moments where I can't sit still. I'm all twitchy and feel like my skins all itchy and tingly.

I pace around in my room rubbing my hands and talking really fast. I also get a fluttery heart.

I don't wake in the night usually so it happens mostly during the day and luckily, while I'm at home. I usually work out and listen to happy, fast music until it wears off, other wise I'm pretty impulsive and likely to do something silly or go drinking on my own.

Usually I wear myself out after a bit and can relax again. It usually happens while I'm alone as well but I do feel like being silly and childish and giggle a lot. It's pretty weird when it happens.
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