Thanks guys I feel very welcomed back
I dont know, Im sure they think I'm better than I actually am and know more than I actually know :-( but it doesnt matter anymore because I freaked out all anxious this morning and politely told them via email that I had been offered a job elsewhere. Which is another problem as of course I do not :-/
I have decided I really want to concentrate on sorting myself out before working another depressing job... I really hope I havn't made a massive mistake