suicide at newyear BPD

[angeldevil123]

I actually find that new year and christmas cheers me up a lot. But i do find that when people are out partying and i am left at home alone or stuck in with the parents do i end up feeling depressed and shitty or during the summer months when everyone ese is out partying. I am like i can't go on anymore.It's been like since I was born, no-one has ever invited me to parties (school friends etc and progressed through adulthood) i'm the one with more online friends, not many friends and no life.

[hayley]

I do have trouble new year and I actually know why!  It's because I think what a sh** year I've had and then start on with thinking that I can't cope with yet another year of the same old sh**.  Same for you, maybe?  Perhaps it's in your subconscious.

[angeldevil123]

please stay safe

[5u2]

I find this time of year hard - I have Seasonal Affective Disorder, so obviously I find the winter worst. It is worth trying to go to parties or events, just to keep your spirits up. I tend to make sure I go down my local pub on New Year - Booze-up and forget what day it is!
I think when I have celebrations to go to, I ignore the depressing nature of this time of year. But I know it's hard for a lot of people - I lost a friend to suicide New Years Eve when we were in 6th Form.

I imagine it's people thinking New Year, New Start etc. And knowing that it is in fact, just another day, knowing I won't feel any different the next day makes it seem like I have another year of s**t ahead rather than most days, it feels like just another day of s**t.

Don't know if that made sense/helped? But I hope you can stay safe over New Year