I've been away for a while I know, and I'm really sorry for that. I felt that I should get myself together quietly and alone before I attempt to come back and post again (was finding some posts triggering)
I'm 4 months SH free. I'm finding life easier. I think I smile more. I have things to take up my time (my distraction box is now more of a distraction drawer!)
Anyway, feel strong enough to come back, feel able to help others.
Only complaint is that the MH support in my town is shocking, had no support of that kind...