Wanted to start off by saying sorry because I haven't been around much lately to offer any support but I will try to get on more
I've been avoiding the site to see how I could get on with everything on my own.
Well, I finished with old bf, started seeing someone else (D) who doesn't live locally at the minute but who comes up regularly (including tonight for 3 days) and I haven't SH'ed or purged in about 3/4 weeks. Things seem to be looking up for me at the minute.
I'm still struggling a bit though. People have asked me about my eating because of how much weight I've lost so quickly but I'm back to the size I was a couple of years ago when I knew him before. I still hear "fat" and "disguisting" when I look in the mirror or just down at myself though and I can't stop worrying about calories! I get into a muddle sometimes when we're out eating because of the unknown calorie intake but I'm trying to relax more about it.
I feel better about me because of him. He appreciates me, desires me and needs me which = a happier me.
Just wanted to update some people on how I was. Keep fighting everyone
There is light at the end of the tunnel x x
