:trig:
I was weighed at my GP appointment yesterday and according to his scales I have lost a significant amount of weighMum's guess it would be classed as (quite a bit more than a couple of pounds)
Although he wasn't concerned and doesn't know about any of this
My BMI is still healthy just lower
Although to be honest I don't believe I have lost any weight as I look exactly the same and I'm exactly the same size. Some of it could be natural weight fluctuations and the rest water weight I've lost?
But at the same time seeing a lower number on the scales is motivating to keep going to get to a new lower target. But at the same time I'm terrified of my weight going back up and I know if it does I'll be very triggered to SH or OD etc.
And Thursday/ Friday my Dad is staying with me and then I'm going to stay with my parents over the weekend for my Mum's birthday. Which is worrying me a lot. There are 2-3 meals out planned. 1 of them (the restaurant) has a low calorie option that is okay. The other 2 I am just going to have to guess the lowest calorie option.
But that still doesn't allow for me to fast for Iintermittent days which is stressing me out.
As for skipping lunch and breakfast, breakfast is easy I've never eaten breakfast. Lunch I am thinking of various ways of getting around eating
I'm just hating myself and feeling awful and I know I will come back triggered and 10× fatter and having gained all the weight back and more.