This evening while going out I started to think about my Past, Present & Future.
This is something I have not been able to do for a long time.
So here is What came to me.....
Past
I started life as a fraudulent lie.
Someone ashamed of who she was.
For it was all an illusion.
An illusion I wanted to be free off.
Yet I was the one afraid to let it go.
For society said the illusion was right.
Was society right or did I have the right to bean individual.
What ever happened, what ever my choice the past would still be a part of me.
SO I made my choice & accepted my true self, freedom at last.
The illusion was sent floating away down a river.
So I started again, a child inside an adults body.
Present
Even now as my present become my past & the future become my present.
I realise that much is still to be done.
I realise even now that we are all special as we learn something each day as we struggle to cope.
I also start to understand that even with this pain, this hurt & so many other negatives that we are still alive.
We live with our fears,our anger, our hurt.
Even within our darkest dispair that there is a spark awaiting to be found.
Yes there will still be dark days, but then isn't the present who we are at that moment in time & not the one from the past or future.
Even if I'm hot happy at that moment if I can help someone even if it is to make them laugh so they feel good then I'm not all bad.
Even this Small moment of the present help define who we are.
Future
What if my future is only a second longer.
So what!
If I canleave something & improve someone else's life,
have I therefore not made it better.
Yet I see more to do & so no matter how long my life will be,
I must fight to make my voice heard.
To stand up tall, even if I feel so small with this world.
I might fear each day or hate what happens, but this one voice might just start a change.
I should therefore struggle with these dark days & night so that when I see the light to stand so tall within,
That I can say, that I too have helped this world.
I know there will be many more bad days & that I may never be free from my sh ing strategies.
So what!
I will take each second, minute, hour, day, week, month or year & make that time mine,
both good & bad.
If this is my only legacy, then I hope my past will help others in their present & future.
My Past, Present & Future....
