Recovery *ED*

[Tallulah]

Thought I'd try and focus on something positive when things are seeming a bit rubbish...

Today, I made a meal that involved all of the major food groups in sensible proportions. I sat at the dinner table and ate it at a sensible speed whilst enjoying the way it tasted. Once I was done I got on with my day without needing to throw up, exercise or take laxatives.

I could *never* have done this a few years ago. I still hold on to various ED behaviours but my grip is loosening over time: it is no longer a crisis if I forget to weigh myself, or if I don't manage to weigh every aspect of my meal, I'm no longer scared of carbs, I no longer make late night supermarket dashes for binge food and laxatives, I no longer exercise until I faint. I have made so much progress over the past year or so, I may not always be able to see it, but the progress is there.

I'm by no means "recovered" and emotionally there is still a lot of work to do but I am definitely well into the journey. It makes me feel hopeful when other things around me seem so hopeless.

 :blushing:

[secret past]

  this is such a positive post to read, well done Tallulah! 

[Olivia]

Speaking as someone who is in the grip of bulimia and trying to recover this really helped. Thanks. I hope you continue to make such amazing progress 

[Terri]

You're awesome.

[Skye]

It is a huge leap. You are a fighter and are surviving 

[bassists_kick_ass]

That's amazing! Well done for being so strong! It's great that you're giving your body what it needs and looking after yourself for the future