Pissed off and fed up.

[Vermilion]

I'm physically and mentally exhausted. There must be a point where it's OK to give up?  :'(

[Rob]

Never a point.

A person can be academically brilliant whilst developing skills for regular activities such as cooking and driving a real struggle. Keep up with it though, don’t make it harder for yourself by getting frustrated and impatient - if it takes time that’s something you have to take. I found driving’ clicked’ at one point and became almost reflex. Are you doing manual or automatic?
You sound a bit overall pessimistic. You might not feel it but you’ve considerably improved in many aspects over the past few years. Give yourself some credit and stop just seeing hurdles

[Vermilion]

The trouble with the slow progress is the sheer cost of the lessons, as much as the fact that I get so frustrated with myself. I'm learning in an automatic, which is difficult enough for me that I know that a manual would be impossible for me.

It's taking a huge toll on me mentally, I've been on the brink of harming myself a few times. Perhaps I'm a bit emotionally vulnerable with other things that are going on, especially the medical things. It's been weeks, maybe months, since I last felt completely relaxed.

It's really hard not to see those huge hurdles in front of me because they do seem to overshadow the other things that have improved. It's easy to get caught up in the difficulties and forget how much things have improved, especially when my energy levels are so low.   

[Rob]

I hear where you’re coming from, and you’ve described exactly what happens when that wall of hurdles towers in front of you. But each time one of those hurdles passes that wall has a gaping hole in it and you see your way through. You don’t have to conquer every obstacle - some you have to accommodate, but you have moved so far forward and I think you’ve got more of an understanding of yourself in the process.