I haven't posted anything here in a while because I had been doing better, still struggling but felt like i was bouncing back and getting back to my normal head space after reaching pretty much rock bottom. I was 2 months clean which is the longest I've gone since before March, until last night. Just feel dissapointed in myself really..feel like I've taken a few steps back. My mental health has always dipped after starting a new school year for some reason and all these feelings are just rushing back, and its awkward in the changing rooms with scars on my legs and arms n stuff, hadn't had to deal with that for 6 months.
Just felt like getting that off my chest somewhere.