Uncertainty with my future MH care.

[Tucan]

That is a shock. Bless you. Look after yourself and look after that b**n!

[Vermilion]

Thank you.
It's been a hard day, I couldn't make any decisions because I just don't know what to do. I cried like a t***, everything is just so hard at the moment. I'm supposed to practice 'self care' which is hard because I don't care about myself. I suppose I could at least get the b**n looked at and try to avoid an infection. I really hope that the practice nurses can do something because I really can't face the b**n unit nor urgent Care or hospital in general.

 I'm still not completely sure about the future care, I was too upset to discuss much because life has been a complete sh** show lately. I'm not being discharged but beyond that not sure. Psychology referral is a possibility since DBT isn't working for me right now. 

I feel like I want to cry again.

[Tucan]

Crying is ok. It's a healthy release.

[Vermilion]

Yeah, I know but it just goes against every instinct, I've always learned that it's bad to show emotions and it's a struggle to get out of that mindset.

The b**n is starting to look iffy so I've arranged for my mam to come with me to UC in the morning. If I go there now I'll be waiting all night anyway but if I get really bad I'll have to phone for an ambulance I guess. :/ I think I'm going to end up on the b**n unit again.

[Tucan]

Oh dear bless you.

I was also taught to not show emotions. It is hard to express them in a healthy way as an adult.

[icicle]

Remember the good times that you had with your  Remember that you gave  a nice life. The RWAF has a memorial page, I think that the Blue Cross might do too.

[Vermilion]

I've planted some heather over him, he's in a plant pot so that I can take him with me if I move. I do it with all of my rabbits.

It's a full thickness b**n so I'm going to the b**n unit again.

[Rob]

Better to have it seen to properly though.

[Vermilion]

Yeah I know, it's such a bummer though. It's getting to the point where the staff recognise me because I've been there a few times now. It's not as bad as last time so hopefully I won't have to stay too long. Sigh.

[Tucan]

Fingers crossed you don't need to stay too long.