A fraud if I don't harm enough?

[Vermilion]

Oh, I fluctuate a lot, I seem to go from almost hyper until I can't get out of bed. But everyone fluctuates like that don't they?

I don't know, maybe I need a kick up the arse.

[jackgrillo]

Oh, I fluctuate a lot, I seem to go from almost hyper until I can't get out of bed. But everyone fluctuates like that don't they?

I don't know, maybe I need a kick up the arse.

I can relate to both of those feelings. I’m not in the right place to formulate words into a proper reply, but just wanted you to know that others also get those thoughts/feelings.

[Tucan]

I just feel sad when I listen to you. I want you to be able to get help and support and get better.

[Vermilion]

I think that many of us feel this way and it's so hard.
I'd love to be able to get the help I need but it's not
going to happen. I can't help wondering f it's just me
y'know? Plenty of people mess things up but aren't 'ill'
so how do I know which one I am? Am I 'unwell' or just
useless/lazy etc?
It just doesn't make sense in my head.


(Apologies if this post looks weird, the text box
isn't working properly on my phone)

[Tucan]

I think you are certainly ill. You are not a fraud.