Violent fantasies / day dreams

[Lily Kym]

I've wanted to post this for ages but it's not felt right till now to do so

Does anyone suffer with disassociation (of sorts) but it's like you're in a day dream some kind of weird fantasy.

About being violent to others

It's like a reoccurring bad dream but I'm fully awake
Well I don't know if fully is right word

Like I'm sat in a committee meeting today - totally not grasping it

All of a sudden 4 men run in with guns and take my manager hostage

Then I end up fighting one of them and taking his gun and making the others give up their guns

I tell the whole committee to leave the room and call the police

Then I shoot the would-be hostage takers in the feet
Then I decide that's not enough so I shoot their knee caps too

This has been on going for a good few years now

Does is stem from my past my dad my mum my ex

Or is it just my ducked up head?

[behindthewall]

I would think it would be worth discussing with psych if you see him or in therapy when you get some but I wouldn't think it is really worrying unless you are having trouble distinguishing between the fantasy and reality.
Although you are violent in the fantasy it is only in defense of others. You're actually saving everyone.

[Lorien]

I'm not sure that this helps with the actual problem but I do something similar and as far as I know I always have done. But there are a few differences- I think I do this in a less literal way than you and I only do this when I am not 100% occupied by something. I have always seen it as sort of usual daydreaming but with a darker topic.

I'd definitely say talk to someone about it. But I just wanted to say that you are definitely not alone in doing that soft of thing.