:trig:
Im better than i was. I had a prospective adjustment. Im watching glee which is a bit sad but i knew i needed to see it. I think i was upset that i was low last night before i knew the news of what happened and i felt guilty about the fact i wanted to die die an i lived (i didnt try to kill myself coz Tom kept me alive and just held me till i felt "better" then he toke me home an i went to sleep) but he comented so much of wanting to get married and have his hapoy ever after and yet he died (unknown what it is but people think its drugs as he did struggle with it). I felt guilty but i know im not to blame as i wasnt there and i didnt know him.
I want to beat my depression/anxiety to live the life he wont get to live and to assure Tom doesnt go through what Lea Michelle is going through tonight.
