They just re did their assessment and I dont fit the criteria any more, I'm so happy, losing the bpd label is like a weight off my shouders, I just wanted to give some hope to people that it is possible to come out the other side. It's also 2 years since I last self harmed, and I can honestly tell you that it does get easier. Harming myself isn't the solution that comes to my head when things go wrong, like it used to be. I'm not perfect (no one is) and things aren't always plain sailing but I dont feel things as strongly as I used to, I dont feel that desperate way any more, I have hopes and dreams again and I'm finally appreciating all the little things in life that I never used to even acknowledge. I am leading a life that I am genuinely happy with. None of this was easy , I had lost all hope, I was a complete mess, I hated my life, I hated myself, I drove everybody who loved me away (including my own mum), I lost my home, I lost my job, I ended up being sectioned a number of times, had countless trips to a&e, I used to dread every waking minute of every day. I had to push myself damn hard to get out of it and I never would have thought I'd have seen the day where I am saying this but, i promise you it IS possible to get better xx
