four years ago today (may trig)

[rainbow]

Four years ago today my world was shattered. My mum was diagnosed with breast cancer.

It was the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. To see her poorly. To see her 'blue' from the ink stuff. To see her have chemo. The chemo made her very poorly, she was in bed for at least a week after, I looked after her. Got her drinks and toast when she wanted them. I mentally lost it. I was fine at home I had to be, but at school I lost it, started skiving, and kicking off. But they left me to it!! then radio therapy after that. Going to that hospital was horrible

That was a very hard year. A very hard year.

It hurts to think about it. I haven't cried yet today, but I can feel it comeing. She's all clear now.I thought I was going to loose her, I'm still not over it I don't think, it still upsets me a lot. I still can't believe it happened. Ill never forget that day.

[Bea]

That is a huge thing that you have all been through - 4 years is a very short time, it's not surprising it still feels raw for you.   

Be kind to yourself. 

It is brilliant that you still have your mum with you

[findingmyway]

Thats a huge thing to go through lovely Like Bea says - its not surprising it still feels raw for you

Can you do something nice for yourself this evening?

Keep talking lovely xxxx

[rainbow]

Just went for a lush walk with my friend, her mum, and her dog. In the woods.

Heads a mess. I'm trying to stay safe.

[Reeta]

Its a huge thing but you really have to look on the positive. You still have her.

I lost my Dad to cancer so I know how frightening it is to watch and be with someone going through the treatment, but the treatment worked, she is clear. Focus on that and the future. Not the past.