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Title: relapsed after a while
Post by: bluebell.x on September 09, 2020, 04:35:25 PM
I haven't posted anything here in a while because I had been doing better, still struggling but felt like i was bouncing back and getting back to my normal head space after reaching pretty much rock bottom. I was 2 months clean which is the longest I've gone since before March, until last night. Just feel dissapointed in myself really..feel like I've taken a few steps back. My mental health has always dipped after starting a new school year for some reason and all these feelings are just rushing back, and its awkward in the changing rooms with scars on my legs and arms n stuff, hadn't had to deal with that for 6 months.

Just felt like getting that off my chest somewhere.
Title: Re: relapsed after a while
Post by: Tucan on September 09, 2020, 05:33:22 PM
Did it help to talk about it? How do you feel now? Returning to school can be a difficult time for young people, especially now as things will be different. Try to not give yourself a hard time over it. Experience says that doesn't help.
Title: Re: relapsed after a while
Post by: bluebell.x on September 09, 2020, 07:59:35 PM
Yeah I guess it feels better to talk about it. It's easier than in real life. I feel ok-ish now like I know there's nothing I can do about it, what's happened happened, it's just that I had gone a while. See when I'm at school i feel ok because I'm distracted it's just when i get home I'm immediately hit with a really low mood. I'm trying not to obsess over it, trying to keep my mind busy.