Hi,
I've not been on here much at all for a while, which I think is a good thing for me as I'm not feeling the need for it (although I still feel bad for not offering support to others, :blushing: ). However I've had some good news recently which I wanted to share with you guys - I'm pregnant
It's still very early days, so I'm trying to be careful about how many people I tell, but we're just so happy and excited it's really difficult!
Soon after I found out I had one of the wierdest feelings - I was grateful to my body, I wanted to thank it for doing such an amazing thing after everything I've put it through. It made me realise that I'm normally in a permanent battle against my body, fighting it and feeling angry with it. Being grateful to it felt shocking. But I'm trying to work with it now, even with food - morning sickness has kicked in big time and the only way to stop it is to eat, mostly carbs, pretty much constantly which is such a massive 'NO' for me for as long as I can remember! It's not easy but I'm trying.
I have my first appointment with the midwife in 2 weeks, and am trying not to think about the fact that I'm almost certainly going to be weighed, or the fact that I have a relatively recent scar on my arm. I *know* those things aren't going to be the prime concern for the midwife, but I am worried about what she will ask
Anyway, I wanted to share my news and to thank all the people who have supported me on here over the years, you're all amazing
xx