Hi Everyone,
I was unable to post this in the Positive experiences and Thoughts forum, so thought I'd post it here. My username on this site used to be Blackice, but I think my account has now been deleted. I was an active user of this site both to give help and seek help in times of need. I used to Self Harm and I had tried to 'end it' before, but luckily, fortunately that did not happen. I remember reading threads about people being 1 week SH free, 1 month SH free.... 5years SH free etc and thinking to myself, oh my god how can they do that?!?! How can they go that length of time without it?!?! When will this sad and empty feeling end?? Will it ever end?!? Now I am the one posting the thread, I am the one 6years SH free. A lot of things have happened in that space of time that could have triggered me, mostly, one of my best friends dying 4 years ago (still feels like yesterday). At the time I was in a dark place, but I had been 2 yrs SH free and had sworn to never allow myself, no matter what the challenge, or how difficult life gets to ever allow myself to fall back into that never ending black hole of depression where there feels like there is no escape. So here I am, thanking all of you for your encouraging messages at my time of need and hopefully this message will encourage some of you going through a rough patch to hold on, that there is hope, that you will shake the crap feeling you have, you just have to make sure to hold on and be strong.
Thanks for reading!