Just wanted to share something positive for a change.
I saw my therapist yesterday and he wrote me letter as part of the therapy about past stuff and what my issues are. Reading it through it is the first time I have ever really felt understood.
When I cut myself, I never show anyone, I keep it hidden. Sometimes people see old scars but never anything recent. I had a dream once that someone (a friend) lifted my sleeve and saw what I had done and understood. That has never actually happened though. I've talked to my therapist about cutting but never shown him anything.
Reading the letter though it seems that I have managed to express myself in words to him and he has understood why I hurt so much, and I can see why too in what he wrote. Nothing is fixed but I feel that what I have been trying to express by injuring myself for all these years has finally been said. That is good.