Trying to be positive...

[mirrhi]

OK, I don't know if this is appropriate to post in this room at all because I'm scared that it could soon be too on topic, current etc, but I'm trying to convince myself that it's a positive step so kinda didn't want to post in H&N.  Though that may change....

I spoke a little to fella last night, having spoken a bit to him before, and now plan to ring GPs tomorrow to get an appointment.  I'm having to stay at mine, away from fella and boys in order to do so, so can't really chicken out  :hen:

I will most likely freak out before then, and apologise  :blushing:

[Sian-May]

I'm so proud of you hun for making that decision. Is your friend going to go with you?

I know the build up before going can be scary but it will be well worth it afterwards and you will feel a big relief.

Let me know how you get on please Thinking about you x x

[mirrhi]

Got appt at 9am, never met this gp. Feel sick. Can't stop shaking.

[Sian-May]

Hunny you'll be fine. I always feel like that too but once it's over you'll feel a lot lot better. I hope it goes well.

Post when you get a chance afterwards x x Good luck!

[terrified heart]

Hope the appointment went ok hun 
Xx

[mirrhi]

She wants me back on previous dose, talked about counselling, etc, wnats me to go back again in a month's time. Didn't mention weight etc thankfully. Was obvious from her questions she'd not read any history etc so I tried to keep it as brief as possible.

[Sian-May]

Well done for going hunny! Very proud of you

I'm glad she didn't ask about your weight so I'm sure that made you more comfortable.

Are you going to take the proper dose now and go back next month?

How are you feeling x x

[mirrhi]

Yeah, I'm gonna take the full dose now, I still need to go and get new script but I have a enough to take full dose for tomorrow and then get new lot. 

Don't know how I feel about the idea of more counselling etc.  Just finding the time for it would be tricky, with fella and boys, work, commuting...  I dunno, I will go back next month, but I'm not sure what I'll say about that 

[Bethy]

You're amazing Mirrhi, I know how much courage all of that must have taken  xx

[mirrhi]

Thank you bethy, that means a lot