I’m single. And kind of like it that way. I’m not going to lie, I like the idea of a relationship but I just know I can’t handle it. Being in a relationship sounds difficult. Not just because of all the normal things that people worry about, but having MH problems just adds another thing onto this.
Is it fair to go into a relationship with all these problems? On the surface I appear normal, but at times I act far from normal. How I am supposed to explain this to someone. Can I even explain this? And suppose they accept all the things that go on in my head. What about the SH? I can’t deal with my own problems, and asking someone else to just accept them? I still SH and it’s not been that long since my last OD. Surely it’s wrong to bring someone else into that?
But unfortunately I am now in a situation where I either have to make a decision to tell them about my problems, or run away and not give a reason. I know that I don’t really want to go into a relationship, but I doubt that I ever will. I just can’t imagine anyone else liking me if they really knew the truth.
I’m not sure what I am expecting anyone to say in response to this, I just wanted to get this out there.