Last night I gave my boyfriend of 4 months the letter I wrote explaining why I had issues with expressing my feelings, trusting people. I laid next to him whilst he read it, not making eye contact and as soon as he finished he gave me the biggest hug ever, whispered beautiful things in my ear, told me he is always going to be here for me, that i'm special, that he loves me. He didn't run away! I didn't scare him off. Never been so happy in my entire life!