I need to lose weight. I am so so unhappy with my appearance and current attitude towards food. I'm constantly eating, I'm never satiated and I'm gaining weight faster than I believed possible. In the past 6 months I have gained stones and stones and it's humiliating. I have a history of EDNOS with anorexic tendencies which then developed into severe Bulimia.
I am so distressed by the way things are at the moment. I can't stop binging. I purged this week for the first time in over a year and I'm scared that if I can't get some control over this binging I'm going to descend back into Bulimia. I am currently in a "crisis" and recieving acute treatment, currently at a day hospital but the possibility of inpatient is still being discussed. They're so focussed on keeping me alive that my weight doesn't seem to matter, as long as I'm not starving myself it's okay. But I am so so sure that if I lost some of this weight and got back to a healthier size I would feel a lot more able to leave the house etc.
I jjust don't know how to deal with losing weight healthily. My self control seems to have run for the hills