Getting towards recovery??

[hayley]

Weird. This year doesn't seem to be much different to any other really
But I was last admitted onto psych ward at the end of January
So I've been out nearly a whole year.
Yet not much in my head changes - still very much fed up
Reached the conclusion that as there is nothing that cannot be said to me that hasn't been said to me before I say nothing
So cpn keeps telling me I'm doing brilliantly
But I cry nearly every night at just how sh** my life is
I try to do stuff but feel I'm doing it cos its expected
Physical health hasn't been right but it is a distraction from mental
Just worry I'll lose prof support

[Lily Kym]

Does your cpn explain why she thinks you're doing brilliantly? Does she know how you're feeling?

Do you want to talk about your physical health hunni? Xx xx

[hayley]

The vol work and mental health good. But I don't tell her how it really is.
Feel like I'm deliberately trying to contradict her and going on black side so its hard to say how it is
Cold and chest infection which is taking a while to clear
Stomach still bad but not gallstones
Likely thing now is an ulcer
I have enough meds to open a small pharmacy

And yesterday boyfys mum found out she has breast cancer