well, in my annoyingly british stiff upperlippy way... i didnt shout. so my anger is still bubbling
she confirmed my diagnosis of MPD/DID, now she is adding BPD and OCD (tried to add psychotic depression but that is stupid as i am not depressed)to it.
the OCD has angered me as so what if i like things clean and orgaised. i means nothing. you cannot do right for doing wrong these days. if my place was dirty and i didnt alphebatise my cereal they would give me a different diagnosis, probaly cholera.
dunno what to think of the BPD... i think my moods are more relevant to my hormones being squiffy because fertility stuff and because i have a 15 year old rape victim living in the back of my cranium ( having two people in one body would normally lead to switching emotions as we both have different thoughts and feelings. duh ).
as for my MPD/DID, she gave me the leaflet she forgot to post, which doesnt really tell my anything new, grounding techniques that i have used myself for a long time (avoiding triggers and avoid intoxicants blah blah blah)
she agrees that reintegration (making me and my alter one consiousness again) is not normally successful but she thinks psychology would hep some way. as would councelling in the mean time to help me control my anger, especially a will be completely alone when i move to somerset.
she actually listened and understood why i dont want to see a rape councellor, even agreed on my opinions for rape 'victims' needing to take some responsibility for what happened in many cases.
dunno how i feel really... nothing has really changed