Scared

[Rob]

Might take a bit of time to stabilise on your med change. Don't forget that everybody's moods go up and down to an extent - it's normal. You need to keep an eye (or with your friend) on yourself each day, perhaps even jot down how each day has been to see how you vary over the week?

[Tucan]

Thank you. I guess I am a bit unstable but also a bit over vigilant. My friend suggested I sounded like I was a bit mixed. Anyhow onwards and upwards, today is another day.

[Vermilion]

It's understandable to be a bit worried about your mood since you have had a tough time with your MH. Try and reassure yourself that your CPN doesn't think that your relapsing and that if you are honest with her arelapse is preventable. 

[Tucan]

Thank you. I don't know if the cpn was also trying to reassure me. I do feel a lot better to what I was. It's just weird how quickly I came out of it! My mind has now gone blank. I do scare myself, and my illness scares me. At the same time I don't see there is anything wrong and wonder why I am taking meds when mood shifts are normal.

[Vermilion]

The idea of taking meds regularly is not just to get things stable but to keep it that way.

MH issues can be very frightening but it's manageable with the right support and/or meds. Some of the things I've said/done/believed etc is very scary so I get where you're coming from but you're also getting counseling to help deal with these things.

[Tucan]

I do get counselling. On the plus side we have eventually started looking at low self esteem work.

[Vermilion]

I think that'll be very helpful for you, many of us with MH struggles tend to get frustrated and angry with ourselves.

You do seem to be better than you were. 

[Tucan]

Thank you, was a bit bouncy this morning, now having anxiety over going to a low mood group.

[Vermilion]

Did you get to the group?

I struggle with groups too so I get how difficult it is.

[Tucan]

I was bouncy and happy, then got hit by sensory overload and then got anxiety. My mood is all over the place.