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Re: Scared
« Reply #20 on: August 22, 2019, 08:04:34 PM »
Thanks, I am annoyingly wide awake. I want sleep and escape.
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Re: Scared
« Reply #21 on: August 23, 2019, 06:00:13 PM »
Had a difficult day. My delusions are annoyingly starting to creep back in. I wanted to wear my white dress and die a holy death to be with God. If I am pure people will be ok. These thoughts are still fairly mild, and I am not actively suicidal. It's just they are creeping back in. I have spoken to a friend that really helped me. I was also out with another group of friends and being with people has helped me. Surely if I die for a higher purpose and am pure it'll be ok.
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Re: Scared
« Reply #22 on: August 23, 2019, 06:27:35 PM »
Itís positive that being with people helps and that you talk  :)

Is it worth approaching your cpn on Monday as she wanted to be your first port of call if things arenít great?

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« Reply #23 on: August 23, 2019, 06:42:32 PM »
She did say that. Bless her. Monday is bank holiday so won't be until Tuesday.
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Re: Scared
« Reply #24 on: August 25, 2019, 09:56:44 AM »
At least you're aware that the thoughts are irrational but tell your CPN as soon as you can before it gets out of control again.

It does sound like your meds aren't as effective as they need to be so I hope you manage to tell the new psych. If you read back through your posts here you'll get a good idea of how things have been for you.

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« Reply #25 on: August 25, 2019, 12:14:37 PM »
I feel better again now. Well I am distracted at work with people and not had any time alone for a while. So not been thinking about how sh** things are and that helps
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Re: Scared
« Reply #26 on: August 25, 2019, 06:16:51 PM »
Well, it's good that work is helping but how are you at home? I find that the night can be the hardest, especially when trying to settle down to sleep.  :hug1: :hug2:
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Re: Scared
« Reply #27 on: August 25, 2019, 06:45:32 PM »
So far I have been distracted. I haven't really stopped yet.
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Re: Scared
« Reply #28 on: August 25, 2019, 07:25:57 PM »
Do you think you'll be ok when you stop and try to sleep? Do you have support in place until you see your CPN?  :hug1: :hug2:
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Re: Scared
« Reply #29 on: August 25, 2019, 07:28:14 PM »
Seeing the pysch on Friday. I am watching TV and playing on my phone. I will probably do this until I fall asleep. Then it's off to work tomorrow.
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