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Everything is broken
« on: July 08, 2019, 06:34:43 PM »
My whole life is crumbling. Everything I've worked so hard to build is falling apart.
My OT training - uni is on pause and I have until December to be well enough to finish my final year or they have to withdraw me from the course.,therefore my career is over before it starts.

My job - What was once a protective factor is now no more as I'm too unwell to go back. Yet also worried my gp/the mental health team won't give me more time off work when my note runs out. Ergo my income is also effed up.

My home - Living with my gf has been so bad I've had to rent a poopy bedsit that I hate. Nowhere feels like a safe space to call home.

My relationship - is rapidly falling apart. Is damaging for us both if I'm honest with myself.

My friendships - pfft, LOL. What friendships? I have some lovely people but they're all so far away and we can only speak over the phone. And I'm exhausting them with my problems.

My physical health - My weight is continuing to balloon, leaving me more insecure and with joint problems I'm so fat. I hate myself.

All falling/fallen to pieces. What on earth do I have left to keep fighting for?
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Re: Everything is broken
« Reply #1 on: July 09, 2019, 03:54:21 PM »
F**K my drag, right?  :(
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Re: Everything is broken
« Reply #2 on: July 09, 2019, 04:08:50 PM »
Hey kitters
I’m not in a place to reply very helpfully right now but I’m sorry things are so tough for you. We’re here to listen if you want to keep posting/ talking things through. Sometimes getting it written down can relieve a tiny bit of the pressure  :hug2:

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Re: Everything is broken
« Reply #3 on: July 11, 2019, 05:10:58 PM »
Hi Skye, thanks for replying.
Also, apologies for my shady comment prior to your reply, BPD at it's finest right  :fryingpan:

I've been reminding myself of thingsve to be grateful for and done some Nice Things©
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I'm just feeling so lost and hopeless. My last SH has finally healed and I'm now battling lots of urges and images. So tired of this.
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Re: Everything is broken
« Reply #4 on: July 11, 2019, 05:15:28 PM »
It is a tiring process to go through. It is hard. We are here for you.
now hand over the tea bags and we won't have any trouble.... :police:


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