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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #10 on: March 14, 2019, 07:23:51 PM »
That isn't good.
now hand over the tea bags and we won't have any trouble.... :police:


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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #11 on: March 15, 2019, 08:05:21 AM »
Another night of on and off sleeping. Am sure I am dreaming stuff cause I wake up in various emotional states. No idea what, but some memories creeping back in during the day.
Sleeping tablet allowed tonight. That should help.
Busy day, though not as emotionally charged hopefully. Must write a to do list. Remembered to put the laundry on...
Great quote “Having CPTSD feels like you are always wading through mud.”
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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #12 on: March 15, 2019, 01:58:43 PM »
Take care of yourself. Keep on plodding. You will get there in the end.
now hand over the tea bags and we won't have any trouble.... :police:


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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #13 on: March 16, 2019, 12:47:21 PM »
I've been reading your posts but I've never been sure what to say.
Have you considered contacting survivor groups about the issues surrounding the reasons for the CPTSD? There are support groups for many different things; domestic abuse, rape and sexual abuse, miscarriage, bereavement, carers... It might help.
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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #14 on: March 16, 2019, 09:53:02 PM »
Thanks Vermillion.
Had a little web search after I read your post. Tried to join a CPTSD forum a while ago but never got a response back. Think it might be USA based.
The issue is childhood emotional neglect / abuse and so far not had much luck finding anything. Will web search periodically in strong phases,
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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #15 on: March 17, 2019, 12:43:52 PM »
That's all you can do.
now hand over the tea bags and we won't have any trouble.... :police:


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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #16 on: March 17, 2019, 01:59:33 PM »
My GP and I were not sure that the person I made an appointment with fot the 25th would be a good fit. Since then one of the other people she sugggested has got in touch. This feel better, so have found a therapist. She is away for 4 weeks, just as I find her, but the fact that the person I have been dealing with from her practise replied immediately to my email on a Saturday evening and has been conversing with me today as well makes me feel positive about the recommendation. Specialises in CPTSD. She was also willing to help me decided what to do as I told her my GP is now away till after the 25th.

So now just the task of cancelling appointment.... tried.....no answer machine  :'(
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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #17 on: March 18, 2019, 10:30:30 AM »
Phone call made. Appointment cancelled. No questions asked.
Person who looks much better qualified should be in touch week beginning April 15th....just need to try and stop myself shutting down before then.
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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #18 on: March 18, 2019, 10:31:45 AM »
Sounds positive for you  :emot-thumbsup11:   You've got this far - it's relatively not much longer  :)
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Re: Telling people *trig SH*
« Reply #19 on: March 18, 2019, 08:29:01 PM »
Thanks Rob.
Really trying hard to hold on to the fact that the diagnosis is 5 weeks old so the struggle is totally understandable. And 4 weeks is relatively soon. 
But I am still c*****g regularly. Nothing serious. Just need to b***d. All fits nicely under mepore. It is how I am coping. Just have to release the pressure. Occasionally manage 2 days without. And I feel I am unraveling more and more day by day. All I could do yesterday was sleep.
I guess I have to accept that a trauma 20 years plus in the making is going to have a serious impact once recognised. Just hope I am strong enough to recover. Right now I don’t feel I am worth enough for anyone to put in the time to help. And I have to apply for funding in that state of mind.
“Pooh began to feel a little more comfortable, because when you are a Bear of Very Little Brain, and Think of Things, you find sometimes that a Thing which seemed very Thingish inside you is quite different when it gets out into the open and other people look at it.”