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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #20 on: February 17, 2019, 10:40:33 AM »
Bless you. That sounds lovely.
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #21 on: February 18, 2019, 01:54:38 PM »
Trying really hard to go with this....
Doing tidying.
Someone else is cleaning. Is a friend who loves cleaning and we are paying. Decided it was a good use of the care portion my other half’s PIP.
We started at 9:45.... has been years since I have had the energy to do anything. Can’t belive how filthy it is.
Guilt starting to creep in .... emotional response. Recognising it for what it is and trying hard not to react.
Tough.
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #22 on: February 18, 2019, 05:28:55 PM »
Try to not feel guilty. It doesn't help matters
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #23 on: February 19, 2019, 04:47:34 PM »
Not doing well.
The realisations are coming thick and fast. My ability to function is being really badly affected. Just buying the new headphones was a huge battle. Had to sit on a bench trying not to cry. Didn’t deserve to spend that much on me. If my other half hadn’t made the breakage worse and felt really bad I wouldn’t have bothered.
Losing track of which days I am cutting. Most I think.
Need to do some flute practise but need to cut to do it.
tool here I come.
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #24 on: February 19, 2019, 07:25:44 PM »
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #25 on: February 19, 2019, 10:20:55 PM »
Seeing GP tomorrow. Trying to write stuff down to organise my thoughts. Can’t get past “emotional flashbacks”
Seems little point writing a list of things I know happened but can’t remember,
Could I suppose.
Maybe would help.
Guess it would justify cPTSD label
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #26 on: February 20, 2019, 09:01:35 AM »
Good luck. I hope it goes well for you.
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #27 on: February 20, 2019, 01:27:44 PM »
GP is at a loss as to what to do next. We both agree that cPTSD is undoubtedly the correct diagnosis. She is going to talk to the person who is responsible for IAPT for advice.
Did have a few useful lightbulb moments.
I am a flute player by profession and need and want to be able to practise, but from the age of 13 to when I left home I used it to escape. I would lock myself in my room and practise to try to keep myself away from everything. That is why I am getting emotional flashbacks when I try to play.
Now to work out some strategies.
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #28 on: February 20, 2019, 01:35:19 PM »
It a long journey bit you will get there.
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #29 on: February 20, 2019, 03:29:37 PM »
My GP says that. Sometimes I believe it. Sometimes I don’t.
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