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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #10 on: February 14, 2019, 01:37:53 PM »
Oh dear that sucks.
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #11 on: February 14, 2019, 02:20:19 PM »
It does....6 hours in the car tomorrow so I need to get it sorted. As usual, reception was cagey when I asked to speak to her as she isn’t on calls today, I hope they give her the message because I know she will phone if she gets it.
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« Reply #12 on: February 14, 2019, 02:58:40 PM »
Good luck with that
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #13 on: February 14, 2019, 04:57:48 PM »
My GP is a star  :1025:
She phoned, and apologised for taking a while (less than 3 hours - not bad in doctor world) She says it isn’t the sleeping tablets, just dealing with the discussion we had yesterday. And to take it steady.

Still struggling with it.
cPTSD
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #14 on: February 14, 2019, 07:36:47 PM »
So...
This is all doing my head in. Probably over thinking. I’m good at that.
Been doing some reading around cPTSD and it just describes all the issues I have had. This could have been recognised 30 years ago. That could have saved me so much. And possibly stopped the SH even starting.

I know, “what if” just doesn’t do any good. Need to work from where I am. Can’t express the emotions. Just don’t have words.
Cut a lot yesterday. Managed not to today.

 
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #15 on: February 14, 2019, 08:41:59 PM »
Bless you  :hug2:
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #16 on: February 15, 2019, 12:17:55 PM »
Starting to feel like knowing this is going to make no difference at all. As jackgrillo so rightly says, I am still the person I was when I woke up Wednesday morning.

I can see that it fits exactly. And it is still nice to know there is a name for it.

But ultimately it isn’t going to change the treatment optionsI have. IAPT still are unlikely to consider seeing me. I have had my quota. I can’t really afford to go private. So it is still up to me to muddle along with the help of my GP.

I am still comvinced that something awful will happen if I dare to think things are getting better. And I must have done something to deserve the treatment by my parents. My sister must be a better person that me to be supported despite her negative behaviour being bi-polar. Since she was allowed to bully me I mustn’t have deserved to be loved. So I still don’t.

My head is going to explode soon.

Need a duvet. But apparently I am a survivor so I shall put on a mask for functioning in the world and so no one knows how horrid the person behind it is
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #17 on: February 16, 2019, 05:21:06 PM »
ok....
so emotional flashbacks are a thing.
and I have them. Big time.
I don’t know what to do with this.
It all feels so real. It is real I guess. I need help with this.
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #18 on: February 17, 2019, 08:52:48 AM »
Hcould you try asking for help again?
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Re: PTST *trig SH*
« Reply #19 on: February 17, 2019, 09:01:02 AM »
Will see GP again on Wednesday. Although limited time wise, she does seem to be the first person who actually hears what I am saying. Will see what she says. I think the “no help till SI stops” will remain. And understanding why hasn’t stopped it.
But I did buy little me (who actually has a different name from adult me cause I changed my name by deed poll/ a few years ago) a small Steiff cat that she wanted. Trying to recognise her existence more. I think that is positive. Doing all this by reading.
“Pooh began to feel a little more comfortable, because when you are a Bear of Very Little Brain, and Think of Things, you find sometimes that a Thing which seemed very Thingish inside you is quite different when it gets out into the open and other people look at it.”