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Re: Mood starting to go other way.
« Reply #210 on: August 12, 2018, 06:43:37 PM »
There was a character with bipolar depression. She was suicidal. The ambulance came out to her. She was dismissed and told she was ok. She then jumps off a bridge. Causes a massive pile up. Then she changes her mind and decides she wants to live. She later died in hospital.

I understand what you are saying. But I have to try to deal with this on my own. I need to learn to not go running everytime I have a blip. I have to learn to live with this condition and deal with it. I will probably tell the cpn when I see her at the end of this month. I haven't got conselling tomorrow. Shame as I could do with talking about stuff.

I am feeling a better today. My suicidal thoughts are not as strong. I am managing better with them. I am just a bit shook up by the casualty storyline.
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Re: Mood starting to go other way.
« Reply #211 on: August 12, 2018, 07:00:40 PM »
It sounds like the story was meant to raise awareness about the lack of understanding around mental health. Trouble is, these stories can be a bit too close to home sometimes. I remember years ago (I haven't watched it since 2005/2006 ish) there was a self harm story and another one where someone OD'd that I found triggering so I do know how upsetting it can be. I guess it's something that we learn to deal with, I wouldn't want the media to avoid these issues to avoid triggering people but maybe a warning would have been good ::-\: .

It's good that you are coping better today. Maybe you can just keep chatting to your PA but explain that you don't want any intervention but just a chat incase things do get bad without you realising it? There's no harm in that, lots of people talk to friends etc about their feelings but it doesn't mean they're not independent but they're being responsible.  When is the next time you see anyone?
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Re: Mood starting to go other way.
« Reply #212 on: August 12, 2018, 07:29:32 PM »
I find the pa a bit invasive when she asks questions. I keep deflecting her with I'm fine, but then she goes around it and asks more questions. I do have a different pa that I trust a bit more and am more willing to talk to. I can find storylines quite triggering at times.
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Re: Mood starting to go other way.
« Reply #213 on: August 14, 2018, 09:04:42 PM »
The,important thing is that you talk to someone, it's wise to have others aware of things. It's hard isn't it?
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Re: Mood starting to go other way.
« Reply #214 on: August 14, 2018, 09:27:53 PM »
It is hard. I am still struggling but not as much. I just either want to drink alcohol or sleep to block out my pointless life. I am forever distracting but not really living. I wish I could enjoy stuff. I wish I could join In with my groups to give me more purpose and structure. I struggle to motivate myself to give myself structure and routine. Tonight I am drinking because I cannot sleep. I slept poorly last night.

On the bright side I did meet with a man. He was nice.to me and we had a lovely time. Hope to see him again.
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Re: Mood starting to go other way.
« Reply #215 on: Yesterday at 07:06:00 PM »
I hope that you slept better.

Motivation is difficult, it can become a cycle where the less you do the less you want to do so the less you do ad infinitum. I wish there was an easy answer to this  :hug2:.
Was this man someone you know or did you meet online? Are you hoping for friendship or romance or will you just see how it goes? It's good that you're socialising more, I know it's something you struggle with.
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Re: Mood starting to go other way.
« Reply #216 on: Yesterday at 07:47:59 PM »
I didn't but then I fall asleep during the day which doesn't help with sleeping at night. I struggle getting up.

I am doing better than last week which surprises me. I still just want to drink alcohol or sleep. I prefer my life in dream form. My real life sucks. I have been wondering if I have slipped back into depression! The nothingness, the wanting to escape life, the bad thoughts. I was even researching suicide last week. I am not doing that this week but still feel like life is pointless.
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