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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #80 on: April 15, 2018, 12:28:20 PM »
Work can be a good distraction. But we also need a break to rest and recharge. Is there anything you can do at home to help you distract?
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #81 on: April 16, 2018, 08:22:17 AM »
Im so alone. my mood is really low i have no motivation or enjoyment in anything right now. I can't live the rest of my life like this
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #82 on: April 16, 2018, 09:52:11 AM »
No you cannot. Bless you. Things will get better again though. I know it doesn't feel like it at the moment but things will improve.
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #83 on: April 21, 2018, 01:44:49 PM »
Ugh tough week been feeling irritable and depressed all wrk and have tried to call both my mum and best friend last weekend and today to chat but neither picked up. Feeling pretty lonely right now. Hate myself for being so pathetic too.
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #84 on: April 21, 2018, 02:49:15 PM »
You are not pathetic. You are just struggling with an illness at the moment.
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #85 on: April 22, 2018, 04:32:48 AM »
Day off today i should go outside and do something but i can't bring myself too. I hate myself a lot at the moment. I hate taking the mirtazapine its making me so fat and controlling how many calories i eat a day on top of everything else is making me so miserable. I have real trouble looking forwards and I'm worrying about the future a lot. I don't know what to do. I have another year left on my visa and so i need to start making some decisions. I love Australia and i live my job but i miss my friends and family and i have readily struggled to make friends here because of the hours i work and so i get quite lonely but that's also tired into the ptsd and depression because im isolating myself. I want to go see my friends but the moment i do i want to go home again because i feel overwhelmed. I also feel that the NHS while great is struggling and MH services aren't great so i think i get much better treatment here. I feel like my life is rushing past me and I'm wasting it. I really want to hurt myself. Found a new till to play with but I've started making scars in a new place I'm going to regret it in the future but then i think what future  :banghead:
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #86 on: April 22, 2018, 07:28:46 AM »
 :hug2: sounds difficult for you. You do have a future. Sounds like you got some difficult decisions to make ahead of you. Only you can choose what you want to do.
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #87 on: April 22, 2018, 09:27:43 AM »
Huge hugs hun,

Just wanted to say Iím thinking of you and despite it looking futile, there is light there somewhere

Stay strong xx
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #88 on: April 22, 2018, 01:36:08 PM »
Thanks guys i did SH. I just don't care about the scars right now. I hate myself so much at the moment and i just need to hit pause on my life for a while but that isn't possible and so I'm panicking about the future because time is passing too fast. I just feel horribly depressed right now and i can't see a way out.  :hide:
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Re: Tired of fighting myself *trig sh* *trig SA*
« Reply #89 on: April 22, 2018, 02:39:46 PM »
That is a bad situation to be in. Good luck.
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