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Worrying about something ridiculous
« on: November 24, 2012, 10:51:49 PM »
So..

All is really good at the moment. I'm coping with my MSc, coping with my job, being social etc.. I've not been in a psych ward for a year now and have only SHd and ODd once this year, neither serious  ::D:

There's just one thing I'm worrying about at the moment. I'm worried that because I'm doing well my support will be cut down. I'm already having less frequent appointments with my SW and psychologist, although I do still see my support worker weekly. I don't know why I'm so worried about this?? If I'm doing well then I should be fine with less input right?

I guess I'm worried about getting ill again and it not be picked up quickly. My care team are excellent and I've had intensive support from them since getting 'the' diagnosis a couple of years ago. There is no reason why I would get ill again, but from experience I do tend to relapse every so often, so it's hard to believe it won't happen again.

I wish I could just be pleased with how well I'm doing. I'm proud of myself for doing well, I just wish I could stop worrying.
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Re: Worrying about something ridiculous
« Reply #1 on: November 25, 2012, 11:15:40 AM »
I think it's a common concern, and am kind of in the same position as you at the moment, where i'm doing well etc... I had a talk with my CPN who put my mind at rest because she said "I think your doing well because of all the support your getting" do you think you could have a talk with your care team and voice your concerns..?

I also have a care plan which lists early warning symptoms for me and if any of them show then support is automatically increased...

I'm glad your doing so well, don't let worrying about having a relapse hold you back xx
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Re: Worrying about something ridiculous
« Reply #2 on: November 28, 2012, 04:06:04 PM »
Hi BG, thanks for replying. Its good to hear that you are doing well too :)

I had to cancel my appointment with SW this week as I was having new carpets laid, have an appointment with her next Monday now. Will bring this up with her then, she is easy to talk to so it should be ok to bring this up. I saw support worker today and had my depot, but didnt say anything about my worries as it just didnt feel right.

I think I need to ask SW about my care plan. We were doing some work on early warning signs but I dont think we finished it or wrote anything up. The only thing I worry about is that when I am getting ill I tend to hide myself away and not see people so I wonder if anyone would actually notice that I was getting unwell. I guess my mum would be first to notice and she has my SW number so I suppose she would contact her.

Im also worrying about my benefits being affected by me doing well. I currently get ESA and DLA. I have just filled out a form for the ESA (one of those you get every year) and I'm worried my money will change. At the mo I work 12 hours a week and study 2 days a week. I don't think I'd cope working any more hours as I get so exhausted so easily.

But yeah, after all that is said I am doing really well so I'll have to focus on that.
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