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hope lost *sh MT*
« on: April 22, 2012, 09:02:23 PM »
its been a long time since i SH, i have been doing ok, kept myself busy, doing karate 3 times a week, music lessons too.  Anyway some people from karate asked me to go out last friday, i didnt think it was a good idea but as i had been doing so well i thought i should give it a try.  i dont drink so that was the first thing that alienated me from them, after i got through that it was really busy and loud in the bar i couldnt hear what anyone was saying to me and i really needed to go, i stayed for maybe another hour and when i left i was totally depressed, i been to karate today and i was just down i didnt enjoy it at all i couldnt do it properly and i really didnt care, i didnt want to speak to anyone let alone do fighting.
i want to sh at least and really considering suicide, i think now i have been discharged from therapy as i havent been for so long, i'm feeling crushed.  i tried and failed now i just want to cut to soothe it.
worst thing is i actually thought i had changed, hahahahahahah :violin:

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #1 on: April 22, 2012, 09:43:36 PM »
hey dont give up

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #2 on: April 22, 2012, 09:43:55 PM »
why?

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #3 on: April 22, 2012, 09:45:02 PM »
because you cant

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #4 on: April 22, 2012, 09:45:41 PM »
and what will it achieve

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #5 on: April 22, 2012, 09:46:23 PM »
if i do or dont?

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #6 on: April 22, 2012, 09:46:37 PM »
You ok hun? :hug1: :hug2: xx
Sometimes we don't need advice
We just need someone to listen

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #7 on: April 22, 2012, 09:46:51 PM »
either

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #8 on: April 22, 2012, 09:47:43 PM »
broken.

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Re: hope lost *sh MT*
« Reply #9 on: April 22, 2012, 09:55:06 PM »
dont know how i'm supposed be.
sorry being stupid.
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