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Survivor Room / Re: Good things about yourself
« Last post by SquareTwo on February 04, 2020, 11:38:26 PM »
Thanks BA. I really needed to do this today. ( And I hope us all having a go was the intention and I am not hijacking your thread)

I am reliable
I care about others
I always try to help
I work hard
I have sanctuary
I can overcome
Survivor Room / Re: Confused returner *possible trigger*
« Last post by SquareTwo on February 04, 2020, 10:49:40 PM »
Welcome back best dolly, and thank you tucan.

Best Dolly, I found the sensation not a permanent thing. It still get the occasional urge, but much like craving cigarettes 3 years after packing them in, I make the effort to redirect the energy.

I was doing good in the aftermath of the initial posting. I got busy and I thought it passed. I moved house, started a dream job in the NHS.

At the moment I am having a crisis of confidence, furthered partly by progesterone withdrawal as my implant is wearing off and getting it changed is proving a challenge in my new locale. Work is proving a challenge on a personal level, I am feeling inadequate in comparison to some temp staff taken on at the same time as me (I'm permanent). I just don't know what to do to believe in myself again.
Research Topics / Re: Self-harm and autism
« Last post by Lorien on February 04, 2020, 10:28:35 PM »
Any reason to focus on talking to parents rather than autistic people themselves?
Survivor Room / Re: Uncertainty with my future MH care.
« Last post by Vermilion on February 04, 2020, 04:35:09 PM »
I do need to voice my concerns about things, I was caught off guard when she told me so I didn't manage to talk about it properly.

To clarify regarding DBT there is a DBT group that I could attend but they don't do one on one sessions, my CC is the only one who can do DBT on a one to one basis. My autism makes groups really overwhelming. Another issue with DBT is my ability to cope with it and 'stay safe' at the same time; CC is unsure if I'm quite ready yet but of course that leaves me with uncertainty regarding future treatment. I feel like my brain is going to explode! 🤯

Anonymous counseling is a great idea but I find that I really need to build a rapport with the counselor as best I can, plus I'm trying to work on my social skills at the same time. I'm hoping that by talking to one person face to face I can build up to talking to a small group in the future. It's b***** difficult but I want to get better at it. I do often write things down and sometimes give it to CC to read if I can't start the conversation myself.

Thank you everyone.  :hug1: :hug2:
Survivor Room / Re: Uncertainty with my future MH care.
« Last post by icicle on February 04, 2020, 10:06:15 AM »
The only thing that I found helpful was e-mail counselling, I'm guessing because the counsellor was good at her job and because it was anonymous- I never even knew her name, so I was free to write stuff that I cannot say. For me, face to face = sitting in a room in silence for an hour. I've never tried DBT, it's not available where I live. I agree with what Terri has said- voice your concerns to your CC before she leaves.
Survivor Room / Re: Uncertainty with my future MH care.
« Last post by Terri on February 04, 2020, 04:25:21 AM »
Hey Vermilion.

I'm sorry that there's so much uncertainty regarding your mental health support. It can be hard when a professional leaves. I think Tucan's idea of voicing your concerns to your cc when you see her is a good idea. It might help to talk about it and might help you to access further support if it's documented. How long have you been doing DBT skills with your cc for? I've been told that sometimes people need two rounds of the 12 month programme for things to really sink in, so it's OK and 'normal' for you to have not made as much progress as you might have like to by now. It doesn't mean that you've failed or that you're stuck like this forever. It just means that you haven't been given enough time yet.

It's a shame that your cc is the only one trained in DBT, that seems very unusual - in this area there's a whole team dedicated to it. Maybe that's unusual though, I'm not sure! Do you think psychology might be able to carry on some of the DBT stuff with you? There may be psychologists there that have done the training who'll be able to pick up where you left off with your cc. It's worth a shot, no? :hug2:
Survivor Room / Re: Uncertainty with my future MH care.
« Last post by Tucan on February 03, 2020, 04:38:18 PM »
Can you mention all of these fears to her? I do feel for you.
Survivor Room / Re: Uncertainty with my future MH care.
« Last post by Vermilion on February 03, 2020, 02:06:11 PM »
They do. I just want my life back but nothing seems to help enough. I don't see much hope since even psychs don't seem to know what to do. I'm 'engaging' with services, I'm really really trying but life is still crap. I know that it takes time but I feel like I should've gotten better than this by now, not completely better but I should have made more progress than I have. I just don't get how things can still be so crap despite trying so hard.
I can't help getting upset and frustrated at times. I can't talk to others because they just make me feel worse, plus my social skills aren't the best. I'm not sure what I could do next, I'm seeing CC next week for what is probably the last time. I'm wondering if Im simply not fixable, I'm not giving up but I'm starting to wonder.
Survivor Room / Re: Uncertainty with my future MH care.
« Last post by Tucan on February 02, 2020, 05:26:14 PM »
Things take time to work.
Survivor Room / Re: Uncertainty with my future MH care.
« Last post by Vermilion on February 02, 2020, 02:30:42 PM »
I just feel like I'm stuck and things will never change, I feel like my life is finished now.

DBT was supposed to be more effective than it has been and I feel that's it.

I don't know what to think about any of it.  ::-\:
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