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Title: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 15, 2019, 10:13:08 PM
Iím hating everything at the moment,  I just donít know what to do with myself.

Iím struggling with really bad anxiety about work.....both while Iím there and while Iím not. Iím worried about not doing things right, not coping, doing things wrong. None of which are ok as a nurse. Itís making work horrible, and work is usually my go to good thing, that makes me feel better about myself. At the moment I donít want to be at work but I donít want not to be at work either. I just donít want to be anymore.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Skye on August 16, 2019, 07:12:44 AM
As all your anxiety is linked to work, is there anything you can identify that has triggered it? Anything happened at work to change the safety/ feel good it gives you? Keep talking to us.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: so sad on August 16, 2019, 09:55:40 AM
Hi

Can you talk to anyone at work that can help? Work makes my anxiety goes through the roof - for all the reasons you gave. I spoke to my manager who is very supportive and tries to make me see that I don't make many mistakes and if I do we can sort them together.

Please keep talking on here if it helps

xx
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 16, 2019, 02:02:24 PM
Nothing has happened at work really. I work shifts so Iím working with different people all the time. I could talk to my manager but I donít know what she can do and Iím scared they will just think I canít cope. Mind you they are probably right......I got to work for my last night shift and just had a meltdown and had to come home leaving the in a pickle. Tomorrow is my next shift and Iím dreading it...what if I have another meltdown. I know that theyíre short staffed too which makes it harder for me. I just feels like a big mess and I donít know how to sort it out.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 23, 2019, 08:59:40 PM
 :maytrigger:

Iím a muppet. Iím in hospital......one way to avoid work is to end up on theatre list. Waited all day nil by mouth to get cancelled just. Not a happy bunny at all. Itís hot and noisy and I wasnít prepared for this. I want to go home.
I think Iíd rather be going to work.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Tucan on August 23, 2019, 09:01:16 PM
Oh dear. Take care.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 24, 2019, 09:32:26 AM
Really struggling....I hate this. I hate how I feel, I hate that itís making me want to harm when I wouldnít be in this mess if it wasnít for sh.

I now have to explain to work why Iíve had another day off....and I donít even know if Iíll be going on Monday either. Itís all a mess.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Rob on August 24, 2019, 09:48:06 AM
We have to play with the cards that we're dealt with - whatever they are. Don't feel bad about it, you have a stressful job which must make it difficult for you.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 24, 2019, 01:14:28 PM
I know it s just sucks sometimes. I hate that my mh makes me unreliable as an employee....... I let them down too often. Yes it is stressful but I just need to deal with it.

I get to go home later at least
 :maytrigger:
But they canít get the foreign body I got stuck out so itís got to stay in which I donít like. The idea makes me feel funny  ::-\:
Just got to wait for antibiotics from pharmacy now.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Rob on August 24, 2019, 02:05:57 PM
But you are still a valuable person to them, even though you've had to work harder because of mh issues.
At least you're getting to go back home.  :)
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 24, 2019, 03:27:45 PM
I canít help thinking someone who reliably turns up and can do the job without having meltdowns would be better for them.

Holding on to the thought of going home. Im fed up of this place now.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Vermilion on August 25, 2019, 09:49:07 AM
How are things now?

I can totally understand the frustration of MH issues seeming to hold you back, I know that it's hard.  :hug1: :hug2:
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 25, 2019, 08:13:31 PM
I got home yesterday eventually.

Feeling wobbly about work now. Iím working tomorrow but worried about whether Iíll cope especially if itís busy. Urghh I really hate all this mh rubbish.....itís draining, so so draining
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Vermilion on August 27, 2019, 03:01:36 PM
How did work go after? I hope it was okay for you.  :hug1: :hug2:
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 27, 2019, 10:02:08 PM
Work was difficult, but I managed because the ward wasnít busy. Itís horrible feeling so on edge though, and constantly worrying about doing the right thing.

Nothing ever seems to feel ok at the moment. I should be looking forward to my holiday but Iím worried about it instead. Iím not sure I want to go but Iím not sure I want to stay here either. I just donít want to have to be at all.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Vermilion on August 30, 2019, 10:48:33 AM
Well done for going to work, I know that's hard to do when all you want to do is hide away from the world. Do they know you're struggling and worried? They could make a few adjustments such as shorter shifts or frequent breaks- could anything like that help? You won't be letting anyone down by sorting things out  before they become unmanageable. Is there anyone from occy health you could chat to?

I can feel nervous about holidays, for me I think it's because my routines change for a week, being in a new place, missing the buns etc. It sounds like things aren't great but I don't think it would do much harm to go, some time away from stress and work must be a good thing. I think you'll regret it if you don't go, it'll probably frustrate you in the sense that it would be yet another thing MH has stolen from you.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on August 30, 2019, 09:17:20 PM
Yes work know Iím finding things difficult at the moment. My manager is quite good but thereís not a lot they can do. Shorter shifts would mean more of them and Iím not sure that would actually help matters. I think itís just me. I wish I knew how to make things feel better. Every day is such a challenge and Iím not sure itís ever going to get better.


I will go on holiday, k (who I live with) is going and I know sheíll help me. I  just haven't been abroad in so so long and it just feels outside my comfort zone now. But youíre right mh has stolen, and continues to steal from me so much I canít let this be something else.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Vermilion on August 31, 2019, 01:17:06 PM
Perhaps there are different tasks you can do at work, maybe things that are less stressful such as cleaning it paperwork or something? In previous jobs I used to escape to the warehouse when things got too difficult. I sometimes found that switching to nights was helpful because it tended to be much quieter, might be an option since you work in a hospital. Sorry if this isn't helpful.. I do think that occy health could be helpful, if nothing else it's someone to vent with, I imagine that there'll be someone available since you work at a hospital?

How long until your holiday? Use that thought to keep you motivated, keep telling yourself that however crap things get that you'll soon be sitting in the sun and enjoying yourself.

*Is totally not jealous  ::P:*

Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: hidden tears on September 01, 2019, 10:28:06 PM
I go tomorrow. Iím not really a fan of sitting in the sun...I find heat is good at emphasising how sh and having to cover up gets to me. Iím worried about being abroad and away from familiarity.

Unfortunately there is no other tasks I can do at work, and we are often short staffed. Nights is a good thought, they can be quieter noise wise but can be just as busy clinically and Iím more tired which seems to make it harder (the shift I didnít manage to do was a night shift) so Iím not sure it would work. I have seen occ health relatively recently and they did what they can but werenít overly helpful. I just need to somehow pull myself together and stop being so pathetic.
Title: Re: Work anxiety *mt sui/sh*
Post by: Vermilion on September 05, 2019, 03:45:06 PM
Keeping covered up does feel crappy but plenty of non self harmers keep covered up too because they don't want to get bķrnt..

Hope you enjoy yourself :).