Hi, please move this if it's not in the right place? Don't want to offend ...
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I've mentioned in the past year or so about having urges. Quite graphic urges to SH badly. Some due to my head telling me I have to but some that just come out of no where.
Today I went upstairs and wanted to do something that would destroy my eyeball. I can't (for obvious reasons) say what it is on here, but it actually shocked me.
Now i'm dying to go to the loo, but dont want to upstairs and see the thing I wanted to use.
I have big urges to break bones. Like my hand knocked something off the side yesterday, and I wanted to break it. I wanted to break my arm last night because I bruised it. I dont think that SH at it's current level is enough. Sounds weird I know.
What I would like to know is, does anyone else have these urges to do very dangerous things to themselves? When I dont listen to the voice and don't do what it says, I have to SH on a smaller scale else something bad will happen.