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Not too sure if anyone's bothered but thought I'd share some happiness with you all.
Things have been pretty good lately. My therapy is hard but I go every week and open up. I made my therapist sad during the last session as I was talking about all of the neglect I suffered and my mum abandoning me a lot as a child. She said it's all very sad and she looked emotional. I don't like to upset people but in a strange way it was nice because it makes me feel better as I worry I've overreacted about the things that have happened in my past, she kind of reaffirmed that it was all very traumatic and it's ok to be a bit broken as a result.
I've realised that it's not going to work with D. I mentioned to him a few weeks back about me moving down there and he quickly changed the subject so I guess I know where I stand with him now. Trying to distance myself from him. I've been getting close to a guy and I'm going to meet him properly this weekend which is exciting. He has the combination I have been searching for as he's a Dom but also incredibly sweet, caring and protective. I'm hoping it works out.
It's been over 2 months since I last SH'ed, 3 months since I last OD'ed and I haven't purged in 10 months. I'm definitely not all fixed but I do spend 90% of my time now feeling happy and smiling. I feel like the real me again. The black cloud has passed and the suns shining and it's an amazing feeling. Thought I'd share a bit of happiness.
Sorry I haven't been helping anyone, I just don't seem to have much time to myself anymore but I'll try and get on when I can. Stay safe everyone and keep smiling :hug2:
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That all sounds great. You've worked hard & deserve happiness. Thanks for updating us :)
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Thank you hunny I really appreciate that :hug2: I hope you're doing ok and you're a bit more stable on your ankle now xx
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What a lovely thread to read :holdingflower:
Thanks for the update. Take care Sian and thank you for all the help you have given me xxx xx xx
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Good to hear from you sian .... So glad things are going well for you... It's so nice to read such a positive post x x
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Lovely to hear from you Sian. I was just thinking of you today. I'm so glad things are looking up. What a lovely post. :)
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Thank you all for your lovely replies, I really appreciate it. I just hope I haven't jinxed myself now :-X haha.
I'll try and get on a bit more and chat with you all.
Stay strong and keep fighting xxx
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Personally I don't believe in jinxing yourself, what happens will happen... It's important to recognise and celebrate the good times...
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Thank you hun :) I'm trying to look at the positive small achievements I've made. A few people recently have said they can see the difference in me which is nice to hear.
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Glad things are looking a bit brighter for you Hun I also wanted to say thank you for helping me get through a tough time xx
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Thank you both so much, I really appreciate your replies. And you're very welcome Emmz.
Even if I don't get on much you can all PM me if you need someone to talk to.
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You are a lovely person Sian and you've been an enormous help to me over the past year. Thankyou. :holdingflower:
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Thank you BTW. I think I told you but I printed something off that you said to me once that was really sweet and it's on my positivity board :) I'm glad I can help. You're a lovely person and you've been a huge help to me and plenty of other members so thank you for that xx
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:wave: me again.
I don't mean to be one of those annoying people that are all happy and I don't mean to rub it in to all of you that are currently struggling but I wanted to post something positive again. I'm seeing my psych on Thursday and I've come to the decision that I'm going to tell them I don't want them to adjust or increase my medication this time. Since started Quetiapine in September I have had it increased at every appointment with my psych, but for the first time in a long long time I feel like I'm stable. My mood has greatly increased and stabilised over the last 7/8 weeks and I'm happy to stay on my current dose of meds which is the first time I've ever been able to say that.
Haven't heard from D since the last message I sent to him, but it's ok. I don't want him out of my life but I think I've turned a corner and I've let him go. My family are very happy for me and my new fella is coming to mine this weekend to meet my sister, nephew and brother in law which is great! I can't wait.
My boss said she's noticed a massive improvement in my mood and performance lately which is great too.
Again, I don't mean to rub it in or anything, it's just been a long time since I've been able to post anything positive. I hope I can be a bit of a model for people as I'm proof that with the right help things can and will get better no matter how dark things seem, just hold on a little longer. I'll try and get on to post to people when I can but you're all welcome to PM me anytime or contact me off the forum if you want to. Stay safe everyone xxx