Good god, how many possible icons are there on this page?! :wabbit: Rabbits!!!!
Anyway guys, hello and this is my first post and first visit here. I've gone 4 years without SH and in the past 2 weeks I've just gone right back into it. And it's a relief to be doing it again, I really mean it. I'm sure these forums are all about understanding without condoning SH and challenging why people SH - so I'll read the Guidelines section on other pages. But I just wanted to say that it seemed the most natural thing in the world, the most appropriate reaction to how things are at the moment. I know, I KNOW I KNOW about all the magical thinking that we ascribe to SH but still I've been doing it.
I went to my practice nurse last week, who was lovely and concerned and I promised her that I'm not suicidal (which I'm really not...there's too much gardening to do) and if I get to a real crisis point I'll head to A&E. She arranged for the community mental health team call me in the next 48hrs. That was Thursday. Today is Tuesday. No phone call.
I recognise the signs and I think I'm losing the plot again. Keeping myself away from other people, happy music just jars against my mood so I don't listen to it, I've started restricting my intake massively and I'm weighing myself a lot, I'm lonely and I'm shutting down.
So that's it really...just saying Hello and Help