I think I'm OK.
I finished tidying my room today. It was an absolute tip, but I've now got rid of rubbish/dusted/hoovered/done laundry/sorted paperwork. It looks good and I feel a lot more settled because of how clean it is. I no longer have to fight my way to my bed and it's a pleasure to sit in here. I treated myself to a new plug in air freshener, so it also smells nice.
I attended my nurse appointment at the GP surgery amd that was fine. I sometimes have difficult going to things when I'm supposed to, but I went and it was fine. Things are doing well.
I went out for a coffee and did some people watching. I was tempted to stay in, but instead I went out and made myself sit in the cafe and relax. I read some of my new book and wrote some things down. I managed to get myself lost in my book and writing was really cathartic.
I did a food shop at Tesco. A proper, healthy food shop. I bought tasty, healthy things that I have to cook. It's only simple stuff and I've cheated in some ways (microwave steamed veg...), but it's better than living on sandwiches and crisps from the corner shop like I have been doing.
I've just phoned the Crisis Team to have a chat. Though I've done really positive things today, I felt a bit overwhelmed by it all. Talking really helped. It was a lady I know from previous visits and stuff and she was lovely - she really understood what I meant and responded just the way I needed her to. She said that I did the right thing in phoning, and that I can phone back any time - it made me feel listened to and like my feelings are valid.
I've been low for a while, but I genuinely feel better today. It was a bit tricky to get myself motivated, but once I got going it was OK. I've got no plans for tomorrow, but am going to aim to see my aunt and the children. Sunday I'm meeting my Mum for lunch, Monday I'm meeting a friend for coffee and Tuesday I'm going out with a friend. I just need to keep the momentum going.
I'm OK.
