I am 5 years sh free.
Since I have given up sh'ing my whole life has turned around.
I used to feel miserable all the time and now I don't feel miserable anymore. Everything is fine.
I have a job. I have a house. I have a car. I got married.
All the things I thought that would never happen to me, have happened since I stopped sh'ing.
I spent nearly 20 years trying to destroy myself but for the past 5 years, I have been trying my hardest to better myself and my life and it has really paid off.
I don't deserve to be treated like dirt. I was treating myself like dirt. Hurting myself. You wouldn't do the things I have done to myself to your worst enemy. I deserve better than that.
I used to be such a mess and now I am one of the most mature people I know.
It hasn't been plain sailing. I have had to put in a lot of extra work the last 5 years to make up for nearly 20 years of self destruction.
But it has been well worth it.