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Here and Now Room / Re: Starting to feel 'ill'
« Last post by Tucan on Yesterday at 06:53:17 PM »
I have slowed calmed down over the weekend. I think work has helped me. I haven't been waking up at night as often but still waking a fair amount, better than every half hour though. Friday I was tempted to stop taking my meds so I could let my mood soar and see where it takes me. I may go high again tomorrow or continue calming down. My mood has been very up and down recently.
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Here and Now Room / Re: More of the same... (trigs, SH, Sui)
« Last post by Terri on Yesterday at 05:51:12 PM »
Hey TH.


That sounds really scary. How're you doing today?


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Here and Now Room / Re: Starting to feel 'ill'
« Last post by Terri on Yesterday at 05:49:42 PM »
How're you doing, Tucan?
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Here and Now Room / Re: More of the same... (trigs, SH, Sui)
« Last post by Rob on Yesterday at 09:17:30 AM »
I hope that you're ok now  :hug2:
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Here and Now Room / Re: More of the same... (trigs, SH, Sui)
« Last post by Tucan on Yesterday at 07:57:30 AM »
It does sound scary. But it also shows strength that you have managed it in a positive way. You are fighting.
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Here and Now Room / Re: More of the same... (trigs, SH, Sui)
« Last post by terrified heart on October 20, 2018, 10:31:23 PM »
Oh god.
I just really scared myself...

***TRIG SH SUI***

I just had to fight through my most intense urges to SH or end my life. Jesus that was powerful. I sat down in the shower and sobbed and sobbed until I felt safe enough to go to my room to take a lorazepam. I had that tingle feeling that just makes you want to cut through your skin, like a physical sensation urging you to do it. Iíve not had that exact urge for so many years.

Then while Iíve been riding it out until the loraz kicks in my head has been plagued with plans to put an end to my life.

These types of thoughts are so frightening. A part of my brain wants to inflict physical damage on me and wants to murder me. Itís terrifying.
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Here and Now Room / Re: At breaking point
« Last post by billy on October 19, 2018, 09:54:20 PM »
I feel like none knows how unhappy I am and how every day I convince my self to go on and that things will get better when all I wanna do is die
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Here and Now Room / Re: Trapped - may trigger
« Last post by Tucan on October 19, 2018, 12:39:20 PM »
I know it's hard to look after yourself. But you are doing great.
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Here and Now Room / Re: Trapped - may trigger
« Last post by so sad on October 19, 2018, 09:36:13 AM »
I think I need more 'me' time but that's not straight forward. My partner is controlling - she doesn't seem to mind me going to costa for an hour at the weekend to do my DBT homework but beyond that - she doesn't like it. I know that isn't right and I shouldn't let it dictate what I do and when but in reality it does. She is retired so is on her own quite a bit so then doesn't like me doing my own thing too often.

I do self-soothe quite a bit even though sometimes it goes against how I'm feeling (self-hate etc) and I do make time to read (lunchtime at work). I'm a bit stuck after that. x
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Here and Now Room / Re: Starting to feel 'ill'
« Last post by Tucan on October 19, 2018, 07:58:15 AM »
Lol I did wonder what that meant. Bless you. I have been tempted to ring up.
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